busy busy busy

haven't been blogging awhile, been busy with work..
the only thing in my mind right now is only work, which i find is a good thing..
the only thing distracting me is the weather... seriously, why does it have to be so hot & rain heavily all the time??? grrr i think i am falling sick =/

been working for 3 weeks now.. working morning and night too.. having 2 jobs is seriously stressing!
still deciding on whether which job is better..
my night job helps me meet new people and some has a lot of mutual friends... i guess the world is really that small.. LOL never know till you actually find out..

16 April, celebrated Jon's birthday over at his place.. my babes was there bel & yano. haven't seen babe yano in a while, was nice seeing her..
apparently i had to leave early and head down to delux to celebrate Chi Li's birthday.. at delux, met up with old friends =) too much party in one night =/ hahaha

Friday, i left work early and headed down to zouk to celebrate Sze Ming's birthday. bumped into alot of people i know there..
it feels so different to back in the clubbing scene. Sze Ming left a while, while Agnes & i dance in mainroom!!
after zouk, agnes & i headed to changkat to meet up some friends, aaron & adrian called they wanted to come over to changkat but they didn't confirm with me that they were on the way to changkat.. went home and aaron called saying they were in changkat =/ but then again, they drove to my place to find me.. headed to abc with aaron, adrian & nicklas, i miss them and it was nice catching up with them =)

Wednesdays, bel babe & i went swimming at boulevard..
it wasn't a long swim but did relax a little and of course laugh like hell.. had much fun =)
stayed over bel's place for a few nights, loads of funny things we did..

some pictures of us swimming =)

at bel babe place cam whoring before work =)

been spending loads of time with her & jie jessica.. they made me realise how good life was again =)
lately i've been karaoke-ing alot with babe bel & jie jessica =) singing songs & laughing at each other its really fun!
they really make me smile, love them to bits!

sometimes i wonder would life be like if things were easier...
if life wasn't challenging but whats the point on not having a challenging life?
at one point of my life it was real challenging i was too tired to fight for my battles
all i had was my friends were there to support me through bad times
they never fail to make me happy,
they pulled me up & pushed me
because of them i pulled through..

life is better now,
working & trying to spend more times with friends..
i still do wonder sometimes how it would be like if things were different,
oh well we can't change the past..

some pictures of me recently =)

 i never regretted,
i never lost anything,
but i gain experience.

thank you to all my friends & love ones for supporting me through it all..
you guys never give up on me
and all you guys gave was love & support
you guys mean the world to me

love xoxo

its hard say goodbye love

its hard to say goodbye to you

things didn't work out the way i thought it would be,

at the end of the day,

its not about me or you,

it was about us.

it was hard for you

but it was also hard for me.

we went through so much ups and downs,

we pulled through
but in the end,

there was a stop to it.

its been only 2 days,

its getting harder and harder each day.

you made a huge impact in my life,

i thank you for teaching me to be a better person,

realising that everything revolves other people,

never think about myself only but thinking about others.

you brought love in my heart,

you brought memories into my mind.

when i am in your arms,

all i only could say that i want to be yours forever,

no matter what are the consequences.

when we kiss,

i say to myself that i never want to be apart from you,

when we hug,

i say that if i could, i just want to stay here to be with you..

when i look into your eyes,

i only want to give you happiness and love,

never to hurt you.

being with you was the best thing that ever happen to me.

there are things that i cannot change,

there are things that i am trying my very best to change for you.

i may not seem to be doing it,

i am really trying love.

being without you,

bring tears to my eyes,

brings a hole in my heart,

and a feeling of lost 

because i feel like my soul is not with me.

if there is fate between us,

i know we will be with each other again.

"if its meant to be yours, it'll come back"

i am scared without you,

i am lonely in heart without you,

i am lost without you,

i can't breathe without you.

i just want to be with you again,

i want you back love,

my heart wants & needs you badly.

iloveyou,

there is nothing that is going to change my love for you

for i will always be here for you♥

loves xoxo

you & me - everlasting journey together as one ♥

Dear Sherry Saw,
i shed tears when i read the post from you.
you touched my heart & my soul

i know i have been through alot recently,

but what did i do to deserve you?
i really thank god that he created you to be my guardian angel

i don't need a vacation
, all i need is you here with me
&
now i already have you
i am on a vacation now because with you around to make laugh and smile,
already feels like a vacation.

i am always here for you too love,
there is nothing that can compare the love we have,
the bonding & the connections.

i was never afraid to tell you my true feelings,
i was never afraid to hide anything from you.
good or bad things i've done,
you'll support me even though in no matter what situation.

you are that very special person in my heart
 sometimes i don't show you i care much or don't listen.
i'm sorry i never show it.

you are a smart girl,
you are pretty,
you are sweet & very nice person.
if i could give you 110 reasons, i would.

baby, i love you so.
i will never let you be alone.
i will only be there for you,
holding your hand & we walk through this crazy life together as team,
always having your back
by supporting you & advicing you.

being by your side makes me feel like home.
 
loving you always,
  ♥ashleychoong

if its meant to be, it'll be yours forever

somethings we can't force to do/have,

there is nothing we can do to have it.

people always say "fight for what you want", when a person fights too hard, they get exhausted. we only want happiness in life. we make others to be happy, even though we have to be the bad one. to see their happiness, we'll be happy. we fight for what we want is because we know that it'll make us happy. when fighting for that special someone & you got them, you'll be the happiest person. being with them is like paradise. you'll never stop fighting until it ends. somethings takes time. if fighting too hard, you'll be might lose them in the end. take a breather and clear your mind, it'll be better soon when fire is burning, its always better to put it out. setting them free for a period hurts badly. holding on to it tightly will only make things worst & lose them forever. in some situations people let go. & some get back together and have a better relationship. taking a time off, is not called a break up but relaxing your mind and clear things out. birds need to spread their wings and fly, not caged up. set them free, if they don't come back then its not meant to be. forcing them to stay, pressuring them in any way will only drive them away. its a bumpy road but i am never letting go iloveyou goodnight & sweetdreams loves xoxo

hello, its been a while =D

its been a while since i've updated my blog, been very very lazy to sit at the computer and blog.. haha

i haven't clubbed in 4 months plus, i am surprised i could stay out of the clubbing scene.. haha.. everyone is so surprise that i am not clubbing anymore.. actually i am surprise myself too.. the last time i partied was at Godskitchen and i didn't plan to go until the day before the event.. most of my time now is spending with boylove, my close friends & with my family.. its really nice catching with my good friends that i rarely see them last time.. and from there we know that even though we are not always together hanging but we are always there for each other.. spending more time with my family these past few days.. mum, is being a cute one as usual and getting closer to my brother is really nice.. boylove, this past months being with you by your side is something that cannot be replace and even money cannot buy our love.. being with you made me become a better person, you cope with my silly attitudes and still hold my hand and guiding me through life.. without you teaching me, i would still be the same.. the first day till today, i still can remember the funny little things that we used to do and when i think about it, i'll smile widely =D

you sealed it with a kiss ♥ you gave me your love, and i am giving you my love back to you. ILoveYou ♥ loves xoxo

unexpected person comes into your life and you try to protect yourself but in the end you give everything you can because for some reason they just sparkle & dazzle your life.. when the person comes and do the things that you've always wanted to have and he is something like your dream partner... but in at the end of the day you are just stuck... there are always some decisions that you can't even decide whether if its the right choice to make...

in life we don't even know whether we are doing the right thing or not, but we just do it because we just follow our hearts...

we might be happy in the beginning, but what happens in the end? does happy endings really exist? in some cases we want it to happen, but we don't really get it...

life is challenging, we have go through ups and downs, happiness and hurt and life and death..

what is it like to fight/argue with the people you love? what is it like when the person you love betrays you? what is it like when you lose the person you love?

we try not to disappoint people, but in the end we fail because we still disappoint the people we love.. its not that we do it intentionally but we do it because we thought it is right for us... but that could be the thing that can kill us... we always think we with our heart and never think twice with our minds and that will be one of the reasons why we always let down the people we love

we can't make everyone happy in life, we will always have enemies/conflicts... there is nothing we can do or run away from it, we just have to face reality and make ourself stronger... to live life there are obstacles that we have to pass through to archive our goals.. there will always be bad times that is hard to solve and time will always pass slowly because its hard... good times will always pass by with a blink of an eye when you are having fun..

somestimes fighting for what we want is not right, because it may lead us into something really really bad... and it may not be worth it, and sometimes is not good to gamble on something which is not worth fighting for...

sometimes fighting for what we want is also good, because if we don't get what we want atleast we know an answer, no matter good or bad atleast we know whether it is meant to be or not...

life is a gamble!

when it comes to teenage love, we tend to do anything to make the other party happy but sometimes they just take things for granted.. love shouldn't be taken for granted... when you find someone you love and loves you back, hold on to them but not too tight because "when you grab a handfull of sand to tight, it'll just slip away".

love should be when 2 person loves, appreciates & respects each other.. nothing will ever break if you have all of that combine but now its hard to find one... but there will be a person for everyone that will do that for you... it just takes time to look for the right one..

hurting ourself emotionally for the person we love just not to hurt them... being the bad person in everything makes it difficult because we look like the bad person but we are just doing it for the best of the other party.. rather sitting quietly and feeling hurt than seeing the person we love hurting, as long as we see them happy, we are happy...

the smile on their faces makes everything feels better, although we are hurting but we just don't want to see the other party hurting too...

we cry a silent tear..

i may not be a perfect person to my family, friends & you but i am really trying my best to be a new person, whether you believe it or not.. i may not obey the things that people told me to do, i have my reasons behind every single thing i do.. its not easy to go through teenage life, its a struggle..

some people act out just to seek attention from family/friends...

family members sometimes can pressure their childrens to do this and that

to the children they think parents are just plain annoying and don't want them to have fun, but actually they just want whats best for the children...

to the parents the children are just rascals (when acting out) they just don't know how see what is really going on in their lives... and of course teens wants to have some fun...

we teens need a little space than study

i am really sorry for the hurt i cause my family.. and all i need is time to change.. it will not be easy, but i'll will try my best to do so...

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